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AlexisRGorglesmith
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Name: Alexis
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Mansfield
Birthday: 7/28/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Marching band, Concert Band, Loudonville Players, Teen Institute, Writing, Drawing, Painting, Creating, Inspiring.
Expertise: I adore music. I adore performing arts, drama, theatre, and those likes. Most of all, I dwell in my writing... my poetry is my sanctuary.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  Alexrgorglesmith
AIM:  Moongoddess3363
MSN: mystery_gal77@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  aphrodisiacticpoet@yahoo.com
Member Since:
9/24/2003
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| So... I don't ever remember having a fight quite as bad as I did with my father... I was just bored at work yesterday when I thought about how uninvolved in my life he has been... especially since Michael and I live together and are married. He didn't give either of us a Christmas card, or gift... and mind you he says he can't afford it... but I know how much money he makes... and his kind of life-style. It's not just about monetary items... it's the fact that he doesn't even try to stay connected with Jonny and I. For my birthday, at least he remembered to wish me a happy birthday this year... but I didn't get a card or anything! I gave him a card and a gift that was very practical... not too expensive. I don't expect some gallant gift or anything... just his thoughts on those few special days of the year. Those are really my beefs with him. I mean he used to come up and visit me when I lived in my dorm alone... probably so he could be a perv and check out the other girls in my dorm. He doesn't spend time with Matthew and Sarah like he should. He gets them every other lousy weekend and the kids sit there and play on the computer or run around with her meds.... They get into whatever food they want because he just doesn't care. I'm worried about how they will think of their father. For once in my life, my dad and I were getting along and I was pretty much the only person who liked him... but after confronting him about why he has a lack of interest in his children... he tells me it's time for him to move on and start a new family. Should he not forget his own family? He thinks his friends are more important than family. His children, including myself, have done nothing but love him... even though he's done some pretty horrible things... I don't feel like I have a father anymore. He is so distant from us all... and there is nothing that can bring us all back together unless he gets a little realizations put back into his head... His view on the divorce is so irrational that he is in complete denial. When bad things happened to me that any normal father would have heard about... he sat back while my mom dealt with these things. I'm just in complete loss as to why things had to change since mine and Jonny's childhood so that Matthew and Sarah are in a bad father-relationship and may suffer from it later in life... :(
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| It is finally nearing one of the happiest moments of my life! It is less than 6 months until Michael and I are married and I become Mrs. Michael DeGiorgis! Plans are on their way to being implemented although I'm at a loss as to how it will be financially handled. Mike still needs to find a job yet and I've been working part time at the YMCA as a babysitter and front desk person. This semester is one of the busiest I've ever encountered and I'm quite exhausted. Tonight we are planning some special things for Tara and Mike and they'll be completely blown away at Thor's and I's plans! lol. Other than that there isn't much to update you on. It is nearing my days of singularity and upon it comes the responsibilities of adulthood! | | |
| I've definitely become numb to emotion almost. I just can't take the fighting... never before have Michael and I fought so much.... I hate it so much. It's like a knife being repeatedly stabbed into my already frail heart. I don't know how much more of this I can take... I've already cried twice today. I went weeks without shedding a single sad tear. Now that we have friends over it's like their fighting promotes our fighting. I don't want to fight, I want to be that perfect couple! I understand some fighting is alright. But not as much as we do... and I want it to be back the way it was before. We hardly ever fought. When we did they were huge fights and now it seems like all we fight over are the little things. My needs aren't being met... I'm losing the battle. I just someone to hold me right now because life is sure damn hard... harder now than ever in the past. I thought the really tough stuff was over but it's just getting started. Always I'm the one people come to for advice but now I need it... :( | | |
| Wow...it's been quite awhile since I've written in here. Well I'm officially a junior in college now! It was a lovely first week of school and now I'm going back on Tuesday for an easy day of classes. Thor and Tara are up playing video games and visiting and my poor lover boy is in bed already because he has to wake up at 5 am. :( I miss him I do. Sometimes we hardly see each other. I can't wait until we're both teachers and can see each other a lot more! I'm really enjoying my classes and getting anxious about our wedding in less than a year! Oh and of course, I turned 21 this summer and enjoy my privileges accordingly, lol. Anyhow, just a quick update... Now I'm off to cuddle with my babe!
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| Wow, I really am a slacker... lol. I guess it must be summer... you know you just want to get away from technology and outdoors. Nah, I'm lying. I've been playing The Legend of Zelda for hours on ends... lol. We are finally in our new apartment up here in Alliance. We both have jobs and it feels satisfying. I can't wait to finally get our desks and our bed built and finishing the last unpacking. lol. Ah, to my job... I am now a proud associate of We're Rolling Pretzel Company. It's fun. On my first day I got a promotion to key holder. I am finally getting trained this week for that job and I'll be rolling out the dough... literally... it means I get to roll the pretzels... lol. Mike is working at Game Stop for his fourth time, lol, but it's a job, right? My 21st birthday comes up here in a little over a month. I'm just trying to figure out where I'm going to have it... lol, not in my apartment. 19 people is too much and too loud for one apartment... lol. Hmm... not much else to say though... Matthew was up and spent a few days with us... and next week I'm taking Sarah and Matthew to the Circus... and Sarah is coming up for a few days the week after... lol. I'm working on getting a car this summer... I really really need one for next year since I'm living off campus and Mike will be student teaching. I don't start class until 9 or 9:30 every day so I don't want to get to campus at 7 because that's when Mike could take me... so if any of you know of any inexpensive, efficient cars for sale, let me know! Alright, I'm off to bed, I'm exhausted!
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